As of tomorrow I’m deleting my Tumblr..to be honest I really love Tumblr..but one of the main reasons I loved it was because it kept me connected with a certain person..but I fucked up..and now they want nothing to do with me..now I have no inspiration..I don’t feel the need to do anything anymore…he never wants to see me again…I’m alone now..and honestly I don’t know why I’m pouring everything out now, I guess I just don’t have anything to lose now…I cut myself again…I can’t seem to stop crying..I feel useless..4 years of being with him and now..he is gone…my only real friend…I messed up..I’m at fault…i want to just die..I want to run away from here…far away..maybe I will..I might sound over dramatic but..to be honest you guys don’t even know…he has been with me threw thick and thin..he has never given up on me…he saw the good in me no one else ever bothered to look for…the only person that made me happy…I loved him so much..and now he is gone..because of me..I didn’t have an easy life..I’ve been abused by a guy before for two years..after I finally got the courage to get away…I was a complete mess..he put my back together again..it wasn’t a pretty four years..it took a lot of work..but he never gave up on me…never! And I fucking messed up!! Like I fucking always do!!! I’m so stupid and worthless!!! I can’t do anything right!!..I don’t know what he saw in me…I’m a horrible person…I don’t deserve the life I have..I hurt someone that has given me a reason to live again…and now I’m alone..he doesn’t want me anymore..like I said..deleting this tomorrow..bye everyone..